…aaaand we’re back.
Things have been somewhat quiet here of late, and – in a break with the tradition of the last twelve months – it’s not because I’ve been spending most of my time curled up in a tiny ball weeping, or howling in despair at the sky like a very low-rent King Lear. Instead, it’s been mainly the fact that I’ve actually been pretty damn busy – one of my main projects has been a pretty drastic overhaul of the website (which isn’t finished as yet – there are still some tweaks to do), and I’ve also been writing. Actual, genuine, no-holds barred writing. I’ve notched up over 20,000 words since January 1st, and (without giving away too much) I’ve got a schedule I’m trying to stick to, and am succeeding so far. We’ll see how it goes. More than anything else, the last week or so has been one of the first points in a while where I’ve actually felt like I’m doing the right thing and going in the right direction. Doubt, fear and other negative emotions have been fairly regular bedfellows for me (for somewhat obvious reasons), but I now feel like whatever I’ve been through (and whatever I’m going to go through – I’m aware of the fact that this emotional rollercoaster ain’t over yet), I’m going to be alright in the end. It’s something I haven’t felt for a while, and am rather glad to be feeling now.
The work helps – I’ve had a selection of things to do over the past two weeks, and have actually had that familiar ‘Not quite enough time in the day’ feeling beloved of freelancers, which means that no matter how hard it may be to keep things going (and how infrequently it may arrive), you’ve gotta be doing something right.
So things are okay. Yes, there’s room for improvement – but now, I feel like at least there’s potential for improvement as well. Plus, I’m off on holiday to Cornwall in a couple of days, which promises to be a much-needed fix of countryside and quiet. And I’m generally hoping that this positivity vibe doesn’t simply turn out to be the hush before the metaphorical custard pie that’s been hurled in my direction finally hits…